Reflections

Very often people forgot all the good other people did, the only thing they will remember is the bad the others did, or the things they didn't do. In life, many things that are done are not obvious, it's gradually overlook and taken for granted whether it's a person, or a good someone did... it just get forgotten...

I should be getting a house in the near future, some one once asked " how commited are u to the house"? I replied "about 80%" which in fact is quite a conservative answer... Fact is it has always been on my mind ever since we moved into the 2nd/3rd year of my RS. Ever since, i've been working hard to save every penny I can because $$ is the most important thing to make my so-call house dream come through ... I dun dare say that I have done all i could, there are time where I do buy on impulse, but the times that I do think is certainly much more greater than the times I don't

If u'll have been following my blog, I used to have a quite expensive hobby, model building. A scaled plastic model doesn't come cheap, and the paint I have to buy as well... but for the sake of saving money, that have to go...

Someone exclaimed that I am a very anti-social guy, cos I always dun follow my fellow frens to do wat youngsters always do, Go karaoke, pub, disco watever ... in fact i hardly go out wif them until they dun really ask me out anymore, just going out cost $$, so my socialisation is kept as minimal as possible.

"Everyone have to own an levis jeans", an ad once said, but I don't, i can't say I dun wan one, I've never worn a levis jean, man studio shirts or anything that costs more than $50. Look into my clothes cupboard to verify, there are all cheap stuffs, even most of the tshirts are 2-3yrs old...although such stuffs are well within my means (esp now) ... but i am still not gg to do it...

conscientiously, i've taken pains to ensure my monthly spendings does not exceed $360 a mth so tat I can comfortablely save $1200 ++ every month. it's not simple, considering my transport alone cost around $100, and another $50 for hp bills, leaves me with just around $200 every month for food and personal stuffs... have to make sure I spend less than $3 every afternoon.

not to mention all the stuffs every guy wans, cars, credit cards and other ex entertainment... did i go for it? if there was no commitment from me, with the level of my savings, I am quite certain I can easily go for a car and live a more interesting and entertaining life at the expense of little or no savings at all...

For wat purpose, do I constantly nag? to incur people's wraft?
How often have I been given empty promises? Though I HATE empty talks, most of the time I overlook them and took all the $$ savings upon myself, frankly it has not been all smooth sailing...

Graduation trips? Almost all my frens have went on holiday either before or after graduation? me? I NEVER went anywhere at all... wat for again?

how many times have I resisted investing in a new computer? people around me have all started using PCI-E, 533/800FSB, DDR-RAM, sata hdd.... even sec school students are using more powerful computers, some have even changed 2x.. sometimes I really want to change the computer seeing the yellowish casing of mine... I am still stuck wif my SDRAM, 133FSB n my 4x AGP... even my bros outside are using newer computers... Haiz

my shoes have started to open it's mouth to "talk" but i did not go for a new one, instead i bought a $2 contact glue to "zipped" up it's mouth... wat's all these for?


Digicams, $400(coolpix), another $300 (ixus) and then $600 (and more) for SLR... all these was done while i was still in NTU, no income at all.... all the pennies are slowly saved from where? from the allowance(except for the SLR) I get frm my mum every week. this does not include the $10/20s for meals etc...All these from $200 a month...

I admit that I am a poor lover, I dunno how to sweet talk, or do romantic things, but I am 99.99% commited to dd... look through the whole blog history... I am not a very great person, neither can i boast of great looks nor achievements. But I am doing all I can to save the most amt of $$ in the least possible time... this is my commitment, I am not NATO (No Action Talk Only), neither do I talk alot abt wat I am doing... but sometimes I think i need to speak up more so that others would start to notice me more before they judge me.

All these are not commitments?

one of my female frens asked me why am i doing most of the savings, y dun I just go out and enjoy like the rest out there... but can i simply heck care? common sense would tell u the consequences.. think again perharps I should enjoy myself more, i've been living this lifestyle for so long, mabbe with some difference others could more easily see the contrast?

my present life is indeed boring, it revolves around my family, my work and dd only perharps it really time for me to change my lifestyle...


Now i am seriously contemplating looking for a PT job where I could work at nights and weekends... just to generate more income.. but I dun think my job would permit me to do so...

sometimes all a guy wan is to be recognised and appreciated, he doesn't need much fanfare or praises... if u dun doubt him it's enough