OTOT everyday

the title says it all...
almost everyday gotta OT (for abt 1.5 mths liao) till about 9-10pm.. reached home already around 10-11pm... super sianz.. Even gotta burn my sundays time wif dd... Grrr... almost turning into a lifeless beast...

I dun understand how these 'creatures' here think... dun they have a life? dun they have family? dun they need some personal free time?

come to think of it, even if u work till late late everyday, dun u produce as much during those 'extra hours'? i firmly believe that when a man is tired, he loses motivation, when he loses motivation he is unproductive... esp in our line where we gotta have a clear head and think carefully... wat's the pt when we produce the "goods" but they are full of bugs? no point right?
when u're tired, u will not think properly.. esp for me..

I feel tat i am no longer in control of my time already, it's have been dictated by others, by others who wan to see involvement, they are the ones who think that

LONG WORK HRS = PROACTIVE WORKER = HARDWORKING WORKER = GOOD WORKER

i tot that by gg into a European MNC, they managers would have more liberal mindset i.e. as long as the goods are produced, they dun care how long u spend in office..

but i am wrong.. in my office they(the bosses) still think in the JAP way... sianz

I dun mind if they burn my weekdays but i just cannot take it when they burn my sundays as well (worse of all, i dun get paid for working extra hrs)... All i wan is to have 1 day of good rest, one day of personal time, to be with my family and love ones... So recharge myself so that i could be fresher and more ready for work for the next week... is tat too much to ask?

Super Short dd day

my weekend is burnt again.. grrr... not happy already for burning my dd day..., sat still ok, but SUNDAY is my DD DAY!!! and it's BURNT!!!
time wif dd already very short already then still like this.. bu suang this time, can't i just have 1 day wif dd undisturbed? is tat too much to ask?
this sunday is super short.... Morning starts at 830am, then we headed to NTU for breakfast, can't find any opened canteen which sells decent food, so end up have to go canteen 2 for b'fast again..
then eat until 930, then left for orchard as dd gg for haircut, her haircut last unusually long, 1.5hrs... then when she came out already close to 12 liao..
next we left for Waterloo st temple to pray for her job. As for me, of cos i pray that such life (weekend burnt) will end soon and i can have my own PERSONAL time wif dd...

I think after dd read this, she might feel i am not a career-minded person and not ambitious enough... but i feel tat everything must have a balance lor... to tell u the truth if i really have to make a choice between job and dd.. i think i will choose dd... haiz mabbe it's true that heros always fall to a woman... dd is my woman... haha
i dun mind working longer on weekdays but PLEASE DON'T TAKE AWAY MY TIME WIF DD, IT'S ALREADY VERY SHORT AS IT IS ALREADY!!!

i think dd is becoming like a drug for me liao, no see her for 1 wk, i will feel weird like something is missing like tat...

hope such hectic life can end soon... grrrrh...

Korea Biz Trip

Returned from Korea on Wednesday...
learnt a few valuable lessons there... seen the true face of some humans... esp my Project Manager..

the story goes like this:
we brought a radio set to ssangyong Motors for them to test, before i went, i received instructions frm my Project Leader(SW) and discipline manager not to commit any schedules or tasks... my role there is just to answer and explain any technical issues there. Full stop...
the meeting there largely revolves around planning and schedules, thus this does not concern me at all so all along i kept quiet...
during testing of the new sample, because of some unfortunate incident, the newer sample is worse than the older one (they found more bugs which does not exists in the older one) of cos this is due to my some of my team's oversight... they removed some useful stuffs when they are trying to remove the useless stuffs... then my project maanger blew his top say how can we bee like tat? every sw got more bugs... like that project how to finish? where is our testing blah blah blah... wah kaoz they customer haven't get angry, he got angry so all along the trip he gave me a black face... , hey it's ain't my fault, i wasn't the one who put the bugs in... but i think as the only member of the sw team there, and my rank is the smallest i gotta take the blame lor... but in front of customers he like 'brothers' with them..so hypocritical...
then he came back to complain to my manager and my project leader i very quiet, never defend the coy... i mean they talking mainly abt the stuffs i was not suppose to have a say, how can i say anything,.. anything i said can be interpreted as a commitment by the koreans... they are like tat... and there was one time i was forced to give an 'estimate' but i was scolded by my project manager already... anyway i dun care abt him lah.. i feel i've done wat i was supposed to do already... there were specific instructions to me and i dun think i've violated any of them...

pics taken by my camera-phone in korea... hehe (went wif 2 oldies cannot bring decent cameras, else they might say.. "hey come here to work, not to sightsee")


view from my hotel room: downtown seoul city

around the hotel

incheon international airport
early morning drive from airport to hotel

Updates

Updates updates, dd complaining me haben been updating any of my blogs for a long long time already... very busy nowadays... sianz ..

1) Work -
my project is coming to an end, well almost... then customer complain threaten to stop the project... haha so very busy i think almost 4wks of OTs already... sianz... longest record is stay till 10pm... then go back eat dinner at 11pm... hungry leh... dunno gotta OT till when... the end is still not in sight then i still gotta start another project in the meantime... I am becoming dd superman soon hehe... oh ya the most terrible thing is my Leader (and manager) still expects me to come back during weekends... yes saturday and sunday to work... WAHHHHH... Sat still ok... sunday is dd time well at least the day time is dd time... how can they make me come back to work and scarifice my dd day??? of cos being the smart d1, i cook up alot of excuses not to come back on sunday lah... hehe... so my dd day is still safe... haha i very bad hor?

2) Biz Trip, oh ya i am 80% gg for my first biz trip already... gg to leave tml, to Korea, as technical adviser... ho ho... actually it's just to explain the technical details, cos my leader and my mgr dun wan to go.. so actually i am the 3rd choice... anyway it's to go there to get scolding lah..cos i said customer not happy our product got so many bugs mah... (some bugs are actually minor ones lah, like skip track sometimes... but they wan to make a mountain out of a molehill) anyway take it as a learning experience lor.. hehe i haben gone on a biz trip before leh.

3) alot of celebrations this month... wah this month got 3 occasions i gotta spend $$... 2 birthdays(dd and my dad's ) and 1 mother's day wah terribly broke this month.. somemore still gotta pay Yunnan gdn $1000 and the biz trip i gotta pay for the expenses first then can claim...

In a dilemma now over my job, actually i like what i am doing, but somehow i think the environment dosen't suit me... i wan something which i am in more control of my time. like gimme a task and a dateline, how and when i am gg to do it is under my control. but in this coy it dosen't seem that way.. they judge ur effort and ur 'involvement' by the amount of time u spent in office. leave on the dot and u are "bo chap" even though u've finish ur work.. Actually most of the OTs i came back to do nothing... like now... on standby to help others, i know as a team we are suppose to help each other lah.. but but... i come back nothing to do... wat for??? mabbe i should change jobs?