down down down

feeling rather down lately... seems to have achieve little despite spending so much effort and $$... looking at the things yet to be done haiz... super sianz...
really financially, emotionally and physically drained... sians sians sians

Coffers is nearly empty already... left only abt $3k++ and still have alot of things haben done... dunno whether can marry early next year... thinking abt it makes me more grrrrh... so much more things to worry abt somemore... $$-wise shld be ok though it's gonna be a bit tight... then there's the 'auspicious date' thing... frankly speaking I DON'T CARE whether we get married at some auspicious dates or not... i just wan to quickly move into new house so that i wun be paying for NOTHING... this fee, that fee all adds up... grrr... furthermore i've taken reno loan to do the renovations, all the more it's ridiculous if we were to wait 2yrs to move in..and pay the interest to the bank... if we were unable to move in next yr, i think the whole reno thing would be a VERY BAD thing...

still yet to be done:
1) $2300 owed to BE
2) my LCD TV (another $1200 mabbe?)
3) Curtains/blinds (~ $700-$800?)
4) book banquet venue @ the 'auspicious date' ...
5) Honeymoon?? ($8000 at least)

WAHHHHH.... terribly sianz... dying soon... need some divine help soon...